A million more chances

A million more chances

 

 

Some people they get to live forever;

Some people do not have the same luck.

I want to go on until the other end of the never,

But fate has decided my time is up.

 

 

If only I had a million more chances.

A million more attempts to live life to the full.

Maybe I could find the antidote;

If only I could read every single book.

 

 

If only I could; if only.

Maybe I would not have to feel so lonely,

Because nobody understands the pain that is my life!

I am not and never will be ready to walk into the light.

 

 

My hope is in Pandora’s box;

I wish I could just pick that lock,

But I cannot, for the fear is too strong.

I guess this is my lot.

 

 

Exhausted from the thought of it all;

No key to be found to walk through a sliding door.

In a life so short, why was it all such a chore?

A battle for life; a love I never saw.

I only glimpsed at what could have been,

But now that desire has gone; I have lost everything.

 

 

I could never try, without somebody at my side.

I cry all the time, because all I want is a life

And a love life too; is that too much to ask?

Please do not take this all from me.

Please do not take it all back.

 

 

As the depression kicks in,

I sink into the abyss.

The loneliness of me, the pity, the lost wishes;

Let me live.

If this is what must be, then why must it be me?

I want to live, I want to live;

I want to be set free.

 

 

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