SOS

The pain spreads… festers and grows.

A weed within this body,

whose roots have possessed my veins,

brokenness, scars and regret follow its wake

Heals over head

Knees deep within a mess

Consumed and overwhelmed

Drip

  Drip

    Drip

Steadily seeping, searching deeper..

drowning my soul one drop at a time.

Within this chest it’s wrapped my ribs

entangling my heart with a suffocating grip

Shut

  Tight

    Shut

       Tighter

Sealing off any emotions, shutting out love

nothing can enter nothing goes out

entombed within myself

Help isn’t coming, help won’t be called

Stubborn and young thinks he can do it alone

Alone is fine for stubborn and young

No one to disappoint or be disappointed by

No one to burden with dark thoughts late at night

But more importantly no one to hurt…

If he gave up the fight

Diving

   Deep

      Deeper

         Darkness

            Descends

The demons inside have eaten their fill

Tearing and clawing at internal walls

Attempting escape from a human cage

Longing for freedom, beginning to crawl out

With closed eyes I dive into my mind

In search for the door

Break the key in the lock

and leave a part of me shut behind

in a feeble attempt to cage the beasts inside

With opened eyes

Face to face with a stranger in a mirror

Realizing I locked everything I recognize away

And those demons got out anyways

Thump

    Thump Thump

         Thump

            Thump Thump

              Thump

                 Thumping away

Heart screaming in sensitive ears

My only company

Are the monsters I create

Moonlight dancing on the curtain

Blood shot eyes.. wide awake

Rattle and shake

A glass of water

A deep breath

The monsters are gone

So is the pain

And the room starts to

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