We live our lives struggling with monsters in our head,
And one night we encounter a monster sitting with us in our bed.

Afterwards we feel broken, afraid, disgusting, shame, destroyed,
We suffer in silence, suppress emotion, escape discussion and avoid .

Sometimes we try distracting the memory by never wanting to be alone.
Or harm ourselves, abuse ourselves, starve our bodies to the bone.

Recently I've thought long and hard,
Why should that monster win and never pay?
After ruining so much of our life, in every single way.

I know its hard , SO painfully hard.
The first step will most certainly always be.
But if we stand up to the fear inside,
In time we may set that hell in our minds free.

I'm writing this as I wipe a tear, as this is not at all easy.
But I have found the courage to finally admit a monster damaged me.

' Fool me once shame of you, fool me twice shame on me '. This quote - i DON'T agree,
It was NEVER my fault , I'm not to blame and now I FINALLY see. 









Ps I'm so sorry i've been absent lovelies. I've had some horrible hospital admissions and severe health problems consume me.

  • Author: Renzi Mars (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 20th, 2020 23:53
  • Category: Sad
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  • Goldfinch60

    It is so good to see you back RENZI and with such a strong write.
    You are about to step into that new stage of your life by dispelling from you body and mind the monster that had caused you to suffer.
    Go forward into your new freedom and you will find that each day will get better.


    • Renzi

      Thankyou Andy.. i really appreciate your kind words. It's nice to be back to our wee community. You guys have always supported me with great kindness and for that i am forever grateful. Hope you're well ♡ much love x

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