The truth will set you free

I’m broken now,

into pieces you could never count, you could never contemplate what I’ve seen and gone through and that a fraction of any Hope in this world to me is absolutely paramount

Nothing has got better since you died, a year ago now, it was months ago I made myself a vow

I’ve tried to stay strong and live my life but somedays all I can do is question why and abundantly cry

Not just for you but for me too

as your death changed me then the past caught up with me suddenly I’m stuck

There’s a lot of anger in me now and in comparison to who I was I now don’t give a fuck

But I miss who I was, the strong focused positive woman with the happy little girl inside

Now I lay in the shadows, now I hide

Sometimes I want to end me

Sometimes I want to live

I’m torn between being in spirit with you

and staying here like I’m supposed to do

People judge and talk their ignorant views

It wouldn't occur to them to ask me my perspective on anything I’ve been through

They don’t know me, they didn’t know us,

Lies and vile behaviour

They only speak bullshit when they cuss

It used to really hurt me, but then I remembered what you always said,

“Fuck em michaela” so I erase them all from my overloaded head

I know what I need to do now

To be honest I’ve been so broken I haven’t really tried

But remembering the core of you and my true self

I will carry on with pride

I’m bringing me back but it will take some time

But I will always be yours and you will always be mine.