where are you

why can't you be a dad?

I'm 17 going on 18 and you still know nothing about me.

we lived together for the majority of my childhood but you were never there.

you don't even call anymore, you told me I'm the one who needs to call.

you're the parent why do you always put the responsibilities of an adult on me.

I'm supposed to be your child, not just another person.

i remember watching you beat my kid brother because he was playing too loud

I remember screaming at you out of fear to stop but you wouldn't 

I remember seeing you come home late, digging through the trash for food because we didn't have much, you didn't know I was there.

I hate you but I feel bad for you

you brought three kids into this world and yet you live as if we don't exist. 

I've asked you for help but you put your new girlfriend before me, your own child.

I don't know where you are but I don't think I want to.