I saw my father suffer through the pancreatic cancer
I saw them bring a bed downstairs so he’d be comfortable
They made a makeshift toilet right inside the cellar door
He wouldn’t have to use the bathroom upstairs any more
He passed away at 48, too young in my opinion
And I was only 14 then, too young to understand
My father being cheated out of all those useful years
And as for me I couldn’t tell you why there were no tears
I cannot tell you of his life, because I know so little
All I know is how the end of his life ruined mine
It brought me grief to last a lifetime, never ending pain
And why I can’t get past it all, I really can’t explain
It’s brought me to the darkest places like those I’ve never seen
Cold and damp and lonely, save the voices in my head
That say I’m worthless, useless, hopeless, caught up in my dreams
I’m helpless in the turmoil when no one can hear me scream
Along the line, I don’t know where, I suffered a loss of faith
I’m godless and drifting to a place that I don’t know
I’m lost and soulless knowing that I’ll never find a light
And slowly realizing that it isn’t worth the fight
If I just had the bravery for one night to end it all
Or is it selfishness that I need to overcome?
And is it fair for anyone who may be left behind?
Is it the only option left to still a troubled mind?
If I just had the courage for one night to end it all…
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Author:
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- Published: April 9th, 2021 11:55
- Category: Sad
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Comments1
The courage is needed to go forward in your life as life is so wonderful.
Andy
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