At Arms Length

I know I'm closed off
I keep myself protected
You try to peak over
but the walls are built higher 

You chisel away at the morter
and pull each brick from its home
enscribed with my memory
you read each stone

You're patient and sweet
but are you just a wolf in sheep's clothing?
I keep you at arms length
and pick up the bricks that you've thrown

You tell me you don't want to hurt me
but the truth is, you do
I'm stepping toe to toe with my fears
with new strength from you

Sometimes they consume me
it'd be easier to step away
I try to hide the darkness
and hope for the sun to rise the next day

The foundation is built deep
there is more that you don't see
It was like living in a revolving door
Sometimes I still get dizzy

I always assume the worst
I promise it's not you, it's me
I'm forward on my journey of healing
but understand,
this is the first time I've meet me.