StephanieAnn

A Bump

There was a minor bump in my recovery

But please don’t judge, don’t hold it against me

I’m trying to do this on my own

I wake up everyday stepping into the unknown

I tell myself tomorrows a new day, I have to keep pushing forward

Then something bad happens in my life and I’m thrown 10 steps backwards

I’m not entirely sure if I relapsed or gave in a little to my addiction

What happened this time wasn’t anything to do with a prescription

It was something else, over the counter, causing a relatable confliction

I realized what was happening when I stopped reading the dosage description

I’m not looking to give myself any excuses 

I just need to get this off my chest, I’m currently so confused

I feel myself slipping off the wagon

I can’t take the pain and suffering I once dreaded upon

I lost something very special to me so I was no longer whole

There was something I needed to try and fix my broken hearts hole

Little did I know I was just listening to the voices

The ones in my head that don’t give me many good choices

A lot of stuff has been happening, my life is full of so much stress

I try to live to the message I share everyday, but I’m such a mess

I’m seeking redemption as I can’t be a hypocrite

Right now the only thing I can say is don’t start something you’ll have to quit

Because it gets harder each time you have to create a safety plan

Find a healthier way to fill a void, don’t give in to such high demands

I usually do this on my own, but I’m willing to take your helping hand

As long as you promise me, by my side is where you’ll forever stand




Stephanie Davis

June 2021

 

Comments4

  • Saxon Crow

    Do you not have a sponsor? They help.
    Thanks for your honest poem. And everyone is allowed a lapse on your journey. The important thing to do is never give up

    • StephanieAnn

      I'm just going through a hard time right now. Just found out my aunt has brain cancer. But I'm doing my best to keep on the right path. I've come too far to lose everything all over again.

    • Goldfinch60

      SC has it right, never give up the wonder of the good world is waiting for you.

      Andy

      • StephanieAnn

        I will never give up what I fought so hard to achieve. Thank you both for the support.

      • Jerry Reynolds

        Good write, Stephanie.

      • jarcher54

        Stephanie, so self-aware and positive to come out and share your Bump story. You may feel like a mess but you also have your act together as far as understanding yourself, your ability to articulate it to others, and a strong spirit. We adore you you know. Anyone who won't let themselves become a hypocrite is admirable and on the road to wisdom. Lead on...

        • StephanieAnn

          Thank you so much for this. It means absolutely everything to me!



        To be able to comment and rate this poem, you must be registered. Register here or if you are already registered, login here.