Will you listen

So many things i wanna say but never do

it's scary to ask but not knowing the answer is scarier

~

My mind is racing with thoughts that jostle each other

eyes wide open your face all over my ceiling

it's the gravity that i can't explain

~

Pulling me but i try to push away

so hard to resist so i just go through with my day

working,sweating, bleeding, praying for the blessings to come my way

~

I just wanna know you so let me in

Connection is hard to build 

but once it's built it's never easy to break

~

The substance is kicking in my veins

so high that i see the world all in grey 

just like my feelings never white 

never black never the same

~

I wanna hold you but so scared you will run away 

my heart is beating loud, can u hear it though the distance is far away 

~

You can say things to me, i'm gonna swallow like a happy pill

a shoulder to cry on when the load is too heavy to carry alone

~

The world is blurry, dungy, dreary but the light is always await 

never give up, hearts that love you, for you, will be there

© Arvy

Aug 2021