Dancing in the snow

Notice of absence from HannahElisabeth
Taking a long overdue mental health vacation. I will check in when I can.

White powder

On the counter

Just to numb a troubled mind

Went looking for the answers

This was all that she could find


She knew she couldn’t live like this

To live like this meant dying

But every life comes to an end

So what’s the point in trying?


To dance with death is madness

Just to feel alive

A hefty price to pay

For someone trying to survive


  • Classicmister

    What powerful and poignant words ... So glad that "better answers were found"
    Go well

  • L. B. Mek

    its important, that we share
    to gift others an opportunity, to learn
    without having to fall to the depths
    we personally experienced,
    however unlikely, if it connects and helps
    just, one
    that's enough to pay for the vulnerability
    you bravely choose, to showcase...
    thanks for sharing, dear Poet
    (happy you've found your 'better'
    hope it evolves, eventually
    into something: 'even Better'!)

    • HannahElisabeth

      Precisely the reason I began sharing my work;
      I found solace in the words of others who found the bravery to do the same.
      The great irony of vulnerability is that there is great strength to be found in choosing it.

      And thank you, for such kind words and encouragement. Slowly but surely, I'm cultivating my "even better".

    • dusk arising

      Many comforts and crutches come our way and the biggest life ruiners are legal. All around we see people being killed by them. Maybe the deep illicit ventures have the benefit of shocking our reality into realising what we are doing to ourselves - hopefully in time to take stock and action.

      • HannahElisabeth

        It truly baffles me what is legal and what isn't... And how society frowns upon those who fall into the more illicit forms of escape, all while killing themselves slowly all the same.

      • Neil Higgins

        Nothing to sniff at here Hannah.I had many occasions in the past to see troubled minds tumble down the rabbit warren,like Alice.Stress,music bands failure, relationship breakups.I could talk all night and probably write a none poetry book about rock venue's,where all and sundry were powdering their nose,or worse
        Thankfully I never got involved,as I only had two close friends,John and Dave.And the strongest item we ever had was a Vindiloo curry on a Friday night.

        • HannahElisabeth

          Neil, your comments always kill me. And the puns... I'm glad you never got involved. Many of us didn't make it out of that time period in my life. Thankful I did

        • Coyote

          A deep, dark, beautifully penned piece Hannah! "To dance with death is madness
          just to feel alive". I LOVE that line! You've really outdone yourself here. Consider me a fan🙂

          • HannahElisabeth

            Thank so so much Coyote, that means a lot to me as I really respect your work 🙂

          • Doggerel Dave

            In terms of structure alone this makes, for me a great piece of verse Hannah, and I cannot help but agree with the sentiment already expressed re the dance – madness – alive lines. Although many attest to the idea that a close association with death can make for a greater appreciation of life – sports such as mountain climbing, motor racing…. Probably better examples... Not something I’ve particularly wished to experience.

            Just a couple (or more) of quick points:
            - Almost all substances we introduce to our bodies are capable of both use and abuse – even water.
            - In the case of your marching powder, as with other illicit drugs plus alcohol, a large proportion of folks are able to use these recreationally and remain fully functioning human beings.
            - However, with respect to this particular substance, it’s consumption, I would argue, is highly immoral by virtue of the violence intimidation and death involved in its production.

            But above all, thanks for the openness and honesty you displayed in bringing your experience here in the first place.

            • HannahElisabeth

              Dave, I couldn't agree more with every single point you made. A prominent neuroscientist just came out about using heroine for recreational purposes... That one I'm still having a hard time wrapping my mind around.

              And I was, and still am, an adrenaline junky at heart. But now I get my kicks trying to skate and indoor skydiving 😂

              Thank you for the kind words, I was afraid this wouldn't be well received. I'm glad to hear that it was.

              • Doggerel Dave

                Thanks for your positive response Hannah. For another view of smack (heroin), since you mention it, you might like to take a look at my post Peter’s Complaint (https://mypoeticside.com/show-poem-126520) and subsequent commentary. It does nothing to negate either your piece or my contribution here, but is a slightly different perspective.

              • Goldfinch60

                Survive you did and now obviously in a wonderful place in your life.


                • HannahElisabeth

                  Thank you Andy, that I am. Very thankful to be here and share my experience in the hopes that others find hope that things do get better.

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