Life is pain

I don’t even know where to begin

Should I start at the end or begin at the beginning

I am lost, I have lost myself as a person

I have lost the boy I was, the one who was always happy

I miss him, he isn’t the same anymore

I need to change but I don’t know where the change at

I got to change but then I have lost faith

Always taking loses asking myself when I am going to gain

I be going through the same problem again and again

I was once happy but all of that have turned into pain

I once had a heart, then decided to give it to my special one

Without knowing what the future had in hand, I got it back in pieces

He once had love, hope, trust, but now he left with none

He used to believe but now he asks himself who to believe in

I was dumb, stupid, childish, yes, I admit it, but the pain I didn’t deserve it

You should have left me burn in hell, but you saved me to put me back there

I did you wrong and I’m accountable of that,

But to hurt me the way you did I don’t deserve that

Where my heart used to be, it’s a hole full of blood that has even dried up

My heart was pumping blood it was red but it not working anymore blood turned black

I should have listened to my instincts but then I still had hope to fix us before we got too far

I don’t mean to hurt you with these words I’m not trying to take you back

I was up all night with the brothers busy scratching my back

I’m the one who started all this girl I admit it my bad

Reminiscing when we started, they all envied us you know since way back

We all make mistakes, I asked for your forgiveness you granted me I was grateful

It was still too early I celebrated I wish you could have seen me I was joyful

Without knowing it was all a trap you got me to my comforts to plant a bomb on me

I never saw that one coming, day and night thinking I was crying no one to speak to

Started abusing drugs trying to numb the pain but I couldn’t stop feeling you