Hi again, it’s me

I wait for you to understand me

I leave you alone because today was amazing for me

I asked you a favor I thought I did so well at communicating today

I felt so proud of myself

Even though I hadn’t eaten all day

The feeling in my stomach hadn’t gone away so I try to ignore it

I distract myself with errands

I buy supplements for myself so I can be stronger and healthy

I get home I call you and no reply

Its okay I understand you are busy I know this

I reassure myself that everything is fine

You tell me to communicate clearly

I’m confused

Did my call not just get declined

By you?

I brush it off

I expect you to let me know when you are going to leave

My mind rambles I eat finally after finally feeling a bit comfortable with myself

I stop I call you

You say you are leaving that I can’t come

I’m once again

Confused

I am frustrated

I tell you why

It’s my fault for feeling this way apparently

No real reply

No explanation

Nothing

I’m left hanging once again

Hours go by I finally call before midnight

My call gets declined with an automated message

I laugh

I get mad and I start my defense here

I act like I don’t need you

You ask me what is my PROBLEM

You don’t really care

If you did you would step away from the table and call me

To make sure I am alright

But I guess

I am not more important

I know I am not

And later when we talk if we even do speak of this

It will be made into

“Why do you do this”

Why do you

Why you

You