The bees in my head
And existential dread
Why can't I get up
I'm glued in my bed
I got brain malfunction
Fucking executive dysfunction
If I'm not transfixed
I lose myself
To overstimulation
What did you just say?
I can't hear you over
This constant ringing
Sensory overload
I now suddenly find myself
Randomly singing
Just focus and make a list
They make it sound so easy
Restless and can't stand still
I'm struggling over here
No I just can't fucking focus
I'm trying my best
My body is in the east
But my mind's lost in the west
Need my supply of dopamine
For sustained euphoria
To conceal the pain from my
Rejection sensitive dysphoria
Have I ever even been in love
And was it true devotion
Or all along has it just been
Sheer obsession
My eyes dilate
When I hyperfixate
And I amaze everyone
With some things I can do
But y'all have no idea
What I would give
Just to be normal
And have it easier like you
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Author:
Mariel Ilagan (
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Comments4
In a word... Brilliant. Loved this to bits. Straight into my favourites.
That's very nice of you, thank you. ❤
So much to love about this. The opening two lines, the flow, the rhymes... Just brilliant - never be normal x
Thank you for your kind words ❤
Brilliant!
sing your Truth, dear poet
thanks for choosing to share
'The bees in my head
An: existential dread,
Why can't I get up!
Fucking, executive dysfunction
The bees in my head
I got brain malfunction, glued
to my bed,
If I'm not transfixed
I lose myself: to overstimulation'
(forgive my rudeness, but this
is how your beautiful poetry revealed itself to me)
It's not rude at all! I appreciate your insights and thank you for the kind words ❤
You put this so absolutely, amazingly well! I've never come across a poet who talked about the struggles of having ADHD before. I was just taken off my stimulant medication for ADHD as of yesterday for severe side effects, this couldn't resonate more right now. Thank you for sharing something so personal, you're not alone 🙂
Awww this makes me smile. It's so heartwarming to know that others can resonate to this as well, it means a lot. Thank you for your kind words, Hannah. ❤
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