numb

feel it all yet I feel nothin

dive into a substance so I can be numb to anything that touches

I’m the canvas to her fingers brushin

even when we fuckin my head only focused on my thoughts rushin

in her eyes I see lovin, face blushin

she catch my vibe and tries to bring me back to a level function

But I’m corrupted to a place beyond repair

In my soul she glare it ain’t fair there’s nothin there but the return of a blank stare

My blood ain’t pumpin warm it’s colder than winter air

Heart frozen I’m pokin at the idea loneliness is my cross to bear

Funny thing I prefer that term which is solely rare

To say I don’t care, is only a lie

Won’t deny I want a chick that’s ride or die

But to force the try is only being insecure in disguise

Till then I won’t pretend till the universe sends a woman who can revive me till I’m alive