Shame....

Suddenly im scared everything looks bleak.
Im struggling to breath i feel so weak
My thoughts are coming at me sharp and fast
My stomachs in knots the world spins past

I can’t focus now its all coming back  

This is more then just a panic attack

 I tried so hard and for so long

I built myself up i thought i was strong  But here i am begging for relief    Overcome with sadness and grief      Letting my mind control how i feel               I can’t tell if any of this is real

Has my luck finally ran out        
Now I’m drowning in this constant doubt At a cross roads the pressure mounts Everything i achieved, nothing counts

So raw and rough this emotional ride 

I dont want to be me i just want to hide Slipping away that comfortable feeling Now im left empty my head is reeling     For you i know its hard to understand

Im sorry this was never what i planned Hopefully this will make us stronger

And we dont stay this way any longer