Lost in the thoughts in my head
Thoughts that I'm better off dead
I try with everything to fight back
Hours and days of my life is off track
Arguing with myself that I want to live
But feeling like I have nothing to give
Wasted life in a cold world
Feeling like I did when I was a lil girl
Why does it have to be this way
Why does my anger control what I say
I'm a mess trying to hold my piece together
But then I wonder what would be better
To never feel love or care or fear
To know death is always near
Does it make me value life or live it recklessly
I can't even tell u what I honestly believe
Lost in the voices lost in the empty days
What happened what did I do what did I say
I feel there's no coming back from this
This monster you witness
A mess of disarray
I know I'll never be okay
One day I'll learn to heal
This is just how I feel
Lyn Dejesus 06/08/2021
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- Comment from author about the poem: I wrote this months ago in the middle of a mental breakdown, trying to express my struggle so I don\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'t take a path I can\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'t come back from, learning to forgive my self even in the strugles
- Category: Forgiveness
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Comments1
A beautifully expressed piece of art. Please, hang in there my friend. Darkness is never forever🙂
Thank you appreciate it I'm gonna do my best
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