Feeling in limbo, I am defeated
Uprooted
Faith and validation are wavering
Label tongue out, seams
flapping in the breeze
I feel unreal, like some fiction character
There but not there, like the mannequin
no one sees, invisible
and naked
Ravaged
by my own narcissistic expectations
turned inside out,
veins screaming like buttons
facing the snow
I am torn – betrayed
by the same trust I betrayed,
acidities in the word-deed irony
of two wretched vengeful hearts
Zips stuck, pockets exposed
peg barely keeping me on the line,
I am on the other side
of a wormhole, window shopping
how things were, or should be
only, the store is closed
no bargain sale, on redemption day
This may be the actual
real world, of stuffed
mismatched color virtues
wrinkled and tumble dried;
though never ironed
Perhaps loyalty’s quality
is an overrated double stitch
It seems, when genuine still had longevity
what seemed real was the fantasy
The notice on the window reads;
There are no love guarantees
made in China
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Garth Rakumakoe (Pseudonym) (
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'Ravaged
by my own 'narcissistic'
expectations'..
(there are no 'expectations'
in narcissism, dear poet
All, is as willed - it just is
or if it fails - to be
its existence, degraded
to irrelevance)
ergo, your way of thinking
doesn't denote, narcissistic tendencies
rather, it demonstrates your lack
of it..
When the world is so full of mindset's
that oppose our own, we
far - too readily, assume
and internalise, the wrongness
we perceive, in that self-sabotaging
'it must be me', ideology.
When in fact
try: as the world might
its us - stubborn few
who see, clearly
its just, we're so much
a minority
our vision is belittled, to fantasy.
'mismatched color virtues
wrinkled and tumble dried;
though never ironed
Perhaps loyalty’s quality
is an overrated double stitch
It seems, when genuine still had longevity
what seemed real was the fantasy'
(a great write!
with seemingly endless, depth
thanks for sharing)
Phwew!... - Where do I start dear reader? An in-depth analysis, I must concede, worth its own very heavy weight in gold. By virtue of narcissism being a rather too self serving and parasitic a trait, it is not far fetched, well, at least from my view point, that the narcissist can have overbearing expectations that only serve to feed his narcissistic tendencies. I am humbled however, that my analogy disassociates me personally from such a trait. You are right; we are too little a minority, who see past the smoke and mirrors. I cannot thank you enough. I am enriched, and I give gratitude.
Be very proud of these words, now fixed in time & dated this 26th day of November 2021 for always & forever ... Neville
Thank you Neville. Much appreciated.
Expectations betray us, and everything we thought we knew could very well turn out to be a subjective viewpoint some far-away scientist told our ancestors to believe, and so we do in turn. The battle with the self is one of the most noble, for to even attempt to battle anything else we must first survive ourselves.
Just my own perspective, not preaching or anything lol.
A wonderful read, Garth. I very much enjoyed. Have a like on me, free of charge.
No truer words have been spoken Nicholas. Your visit always adds so much value. I am richer. Thank you.🙏🏼
Very powerful words Garth, one can only hope that love will be there for all in time.
Andy
Without love, we lose so much. Very true Andy.
I thought I left my thoughts on 'Inside Out' yesterday when I first visited .. but for some reason, for a micro-second it seemed that I hadn't .. but then .. I had ... there is something strange going on here .. Anyway, it is just as good today as it was on Friday 26th November 2021 ............................. very good indeed .. Neville
Lol, you actually did good sir, but much thanks for a second grace gifted one!
Really liked the read … interesting words , great flow )
Thank you fellow Poet. It means a lot...🙏🏼
I continue to applaud you. From the day you started publishing, you deliver wonderful poetry. Another great read, Garth
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