Flashbacks keep continuing as most triggers still remain unknown
Some take a while to figure out
While during others the flashback dances through my head in an instant
I don't understand most of it, like why some triggers are triggers
As his image sometimes can't leave my head
And I am burdened once again with what the past held.
I feel like I still cannot truly comprehend what happened;
Mother was arrogant with her lies
Her husband was a predator dressed in sheep's clothing
He was a predator barely staying behind the psychopath line
I was a naive little girl, prey in their eyes
They slowly crept in.
Sometimes I still think it's my fault that everything happened,
Maybe if I hadn't been as naive
Maybe if I hadn't been so stupid
Maybe if I was smart enough
Maybe if...
I tear myself apart trying to explain what happened
When in reality, it's impossible to explain the motives of the predators
Were they bored?
Did they see my body as a new toy?
Was their life just not good enough that they had to take the past of mine?
I don't know if I'll ever understand, or forgive them
And trying to deal with this aftermath seems just as bad as if it were still happening.
- Author: Anna Colette ( Offline)
- Published: November 29th, 2021 16:57
- Category: Sad
- Views: 10
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