Cheating

Im only destroying myself

Because thats the only thing im good at it

I am incapable of being loved

I only hurt others in the process 

I’ve proved myself one too many times that I’m incapable of being committed 

Now I’m too afraid to try 

Afraid that I’ll hurt myself or someone again 

Even when I have no intentions of cheating 

My subconscious drives me to anyway 

Maybe this is who I really am 

But it’s not who I want to be 

One day I’ll change 

I have hope that I do 

I will find love one day

It may not be soon