Family Factory...

Truth be told I truly don't know where to begin...?

It's deep, it's bad & it's dam right ugly...

And has a funny way of knocking me for six, because I know this I can fix...

No joke, No lie...

I don't even know why I bother to try...

My head remains in a constant spin...

Wondering once again what did I do for all this yet again to begin...?

Even though it happens more than twice a year...

It starts so lovely, warm & kind... 

Doesn't last for more than six months at a time...

I should get the pre-warning & hints before the actual drop me out time...

Tick tock, tick tock goes that clock... 

Its count down time... 

When me jaimeleigh is dropped like a bomb for tenth or more time...

I don't have a clue where its all coming from... 

They was my family so I just cracked on... 

Even though it was me they were doing wrong...

Maybe that comes from that I never did belong with the mum & dad who had me...

I would have been better if my family came from a family factory...

Instead of the family tree...

That obviously had no branch for me...

In my early years I did truly believe something was seriously wired wrong in me...

It was my fault that I didn't belong in this family factory...

Every other family I saw was close & tight...

Imprinted like a pack of wolves would be...

I imagined a family should be...

But something was seriously missing in mine or me...

I just knew as I grew that I didn't belong within this family who had created me out of love apparently...

With that being said I felt anything but warm & fuzzy... 

I was shown the front door as soon as my feet touched the floor... 

And nothing much has changed since then...

I've dropped time & time again with in this so called family tree...

So I knew I'd learn someday so them bridges I did burn so for me there could be no return...  

Because No longer did I yearn to be apart of this using family tree that didn't want me...

I grew a tree of my own... That's my life... That's my family factory...