Anna Colette

Mental State

I stare -

At the cracks in the ceiling, at the slowly peeling wallpaper, at the carpeted floor with stains -

I cannot focus on reading or tv or anything 

There is no "point of interest" to me, everything seems pointless in this moment. 

My emotions have been pushed away

I cannot feel anything

Yet, I am trying so hard to keep the tears in 

And I don't even know why I want to cry

I just want to let myself loose 

And feel something good.

  • Author: Anna Colette (Offline Offline)
  • Published: December 31st, 2021 20:56
  • Comment from author about the poem: Hold on.
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  • SukaLives

    I love this depiction of disassociation in the midst of so much emotions being held back by a cracking dam. Sort of feels like dying slowly. Allowing yourself to either rot away or explode in emotional hysteria. At least that’s my interpretation. Great piece of writing.

    • Anna Colette

      Thank you for reading and replying to my poem. I couldn't put into words how to describe those feelings, but you did it perfectly. Happy New Year 🙂

      • SukaLives

        Oh I’m so glad I wasn’t misinterpreting! The great part about poetry is drawing out an emotion without directly explaining the feeling. Happy new year!

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