Patiently Waiting

As I sit here laying in my bed, all I can do is think about how lonely I am in my head.

I don't smile as often as I use too,I just walk around in deep thought is all I can do.

Will I ever find happiness or will it find me?How much longer I have to wait just to see?

How can two people live together and not say a word,if these walls could talk even it would say this is absurd.

Why can't love be more simplier than this, it shouldn't be difficult when so much is admiss.

I want someone who will love me despite of my flaws,is that too much to ask for when I always give my all?

I'm tired of the hurt and pain I feel inside, but no one notices because to the world I smile, that's how I hide.

I feel I have no oxygen I'm gasping for air, going thru this alone its not right its not fair.

But God loves me and sees me for me,and I have to keep faith that the future husband he has for me will actually be meant to be.