shattered mirror talk

Truly one of my ugliest aspects within my being,

the ugly feel and fear of ugliness.

Dear body, I'm sorry I treat you this way.

a constant cycle of hatred and physical, verbal abuse.

you take such great care of me

Why is it so difficult to return the favor?

I began to realize what it truly means to live in this realm and on this planet.

Our bodies are in natural give and take with the earth

just as any other living thing, as we were all birthed from the same ground beneath.

under the same sun that blesses the living body.

My mind is what connects my soul to my physical person.

This strong and power filled emotion is what makes me a human.

this emotion is tied with how I think and react in different situations.

My ego shields over my soul, creating this double conscious mind.

as my ego seems to be all I've ever known, he swallows me whole

Do you think that I'm pretty? really?

truly why do I find this so important?

when all I teach and preach is

 we are more than what the surface brings.

I feel unclean

can't help the feeling and need to scream

I sit in this tub for hours

why don't I feel clean?

seeking validation

what do you think?
tell the truth.

while seeking validation from anyone but yourself

is truly invalid

you know you

look at yourself

have a talk

love you

for the good and bad

the raw 

clean and unclean.

it's you.