Sadness... Madness...

I love you... Truly I do... It might not be the same for you...?  I feel abandoned by you... I should be well use to the feelings of not wanting me near...  Not loved or respected by you at all...  & emotions of being used & disrespected I'm going though day after month after year... I cant actually remember the last time I felt I mattered to you, in any shape way or form... I cant remember weekends in bed, the love-making... The giving & the taking... The caring & the sharing... The joking, & the laughter... Wanting to be near & dear for here ever after... There's no us, there's no we... There's no solidarity...  There's no unity... There's no loyalty...  I think its time to move on from you & I...? There's nothing left for me no more...  Its time to say goodbye &shut the front door there's nothing in it for me being with you...  I'm miserable like I never knew was possible... I'm telling you... You haven't done anything to change what I already knew... It's something in all honestly I didn't want to be true...  I thought we had a future I thought I had everything with you... Its sadness & its madness that you didn't think that way too...