that funny feeling

there have been so many days

full of joy,

and there have been so many more 

full of sadness.

and sometimes there are days full of

nothing.

it's not sadness,

it's not joy,

it's not hatred

or fear

or anger,

or even the numbness.

it's just the 

nothing. 

the days you're strong enough to leave the house

but too weak to take another step, 

the days you have enough energy to shower and brush your teeth

but not enough to leave your room and eat something ,

those days are full of the funny feeling

the nothing

and 

the everything

at the exact same time.