An Angel Without Wings

In my mind I hear a distant piano bleeding into the night of seagulls              

Hot white fog and seafoam jitters                                                            

I endlessly sigh, back turned to the cloudless sky                                                                      

A senseless memory of a time that never really happened                                        

When we were young and had a reason to smile                                

Our love was written in the stars, but our fate was unpredictable                    

I should've known this life was a dead end, how foolish           

Could I have been to think you were more than a slow healing wound?            

All the signs were there, white flags ignored                                                                        

Pure heart surrendering to the fading skyline                                                          

Obscured by our dark thoughts, I climb through every reason                                              

I put down the phone when I'm thinking about calling you                                                    

You never listened to me when I needed your help                                                      

And you threw my tears away like they were meaningless                                                    

Oh, how meaningless I am to you                                                                                          

The sun you never seen beauty in, the sky you never looked at                                          

The trees when they were arching like limbs                                                

Craving the touch of a lover, twisting and turning                                                                  

Oh, how you made a basket case out of me, called me crazy                                              

Just for thinking you actually cared                                                        

Laid flowers on my chest for every new scar                                                                          

Every sleepless night I sat awake and felt stupid for loving you                            

I realised my breath is useless, my kisses are useless                                                      

My voice is an echoing ocean of longing just for you to see                                            

I always loved you, but your actions prove you never loved me                                    

And now I sit here, in this blissful candlelight                                                            

And the moment is still, an angel without wings                                                                      

Unduly numb in my hopelessness                                                                                              

Singing in a fever dream                                                                                                        

There was a time everything was right, I was resilient                                                        

Through black clouds, through the pain I couldn't snuff out                                              

Strike a match on all of my poems                                                           

When you think you're alone, you're not the only one                                                 

An atom in time, drinking sunshadows                                                                    

Sunshowers and violins.