Depressed again

Depressed again

I finally had a break

It seemed like it was gone 

Like I had worked my way out

 

Depression

A choice that’s not always a choice

A circling of thoughts, behaviors

I can’t find myself changing

 

I know there are choices

Things to be done

To assist in pulling out from

This dungeon I’ve become

 

It pains me to be this way

To walk in the shadows

To be a ghost of a man

To know help comes from within

To struggle like it’s a sin

 

Having lived this way for so long 

Having trained my mind this way

The change I require

Means changing my brain

 

They say change can happen

I dream for the day to come 

This feeling I’m having

It’s sad and no fun

 

Suicide is calling

I’m trying to ignore

But help I could use

This really is no fun

 

I hope this will pass

Truth is it can’t

Until I work through this

I don’t have a chance

 

Forgive me my soul

For failing you in this life