I needed more information,
Anger, helplessness, frustration
this time, I actually had a reason to feel all these emotions.
I didn’t want to believe there was something wrong with me, that I was a malfunction.
I didn’t want to be dependent to survive.
I wasn’t sure I could long thrive,
And even if I did, it would be a slow torture to be near them
knowing they would never have time to return my feelings for them.
I didn’t hug myself and wallow in pain
I analyzed my reports but didn’t count my remaining time
It wasn’t like me to ignore the grime
I loved people. Didn’t I? Or I didn’t know myself as well as I thought I did.
Logic and emotion raged a battle inside my head.
Should I let myself depend or shield myself from hurting them?
Should I ignore my need to be near them, or give in to my longings
Even if they were fabricated by the Healing Water?
“Relying on others doesn’t mean you’re weak, it means you’re human.
You might not see it, but the people you love
are relying on you just as much as you rely on them”
But why should I?
But why should they?
Why?
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Author:
Ananya (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: I am strong enough but I am not sure if I WANT to be strong.
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Comments3
Apprehensions at every stage of life, Well crafted and drafted too...Nice play of words!!
Man this hurt me. I've always had these thoughts, and while I'm not bad with them now they were a while back. Really effective!
So true! The world is one long pattern of reliance. Everything is interdependent and I love the way you delivered the message. We're just made like that. 💖
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