Dream or Reality

Do you ever have a dream,

That made you realize

Life’s not what it seems?

I remember being in my house, 

Living my normal life. 

But one thing was different.

I was eating, cutting food with a knife.

Soon, I woke up in a cold sweat.

My mind knows food is a threat. 

My first instinct was

To force it up and starve

It kind of made me realize

How fucked up I am. 

Just a shell of a person, 

Not a woman

Nor a man.