Have you?

Have you?

Have you ever feel empty?
void from all emotions.
Have you ever stare at the ceiling?
with nothingness.

Have you ever cry
without any reasons?
Have you ever feel happy
yet still want to die?

Before, I was scared of death
but now I'm terrified on how much I wished for it.
Perhaps death is not actually one to fear
but the fear of your soul dying while still living.