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I really don’t want to believe there’s meaning to anything 

I’ve staked my identity, my impulsivity, my irresponsibility 

On the idea that everything is nothing

And i worry that maybe im meant to have the things I have

Things i don't feel like i deserve

I tell myself it’s because I want to be aware of my privilege 

But then I get high all day 

So yeah I’m about as aware as I am sober 

But I can’t help but feel like I’m denying destiny 

Lucki says I can’t wait for no shit that I was born to get 

I’m just worried I’m going to wait too long

I don’t want to wait at all