Instructed Freedom

Freedom was all I ever wanted,

But then you chose yourself for me to depend.

You leaded the way and marked the path,

A direction that which I'll never pass.

 

I followed orders and every command,

Cause if I don't, I would be banned.

Though I fail your way sometimes,

But believe me, I hardly tried.

 

Accepting what was given by your choice,

You really thought that I would rejoice.

A little happiness  to a part of me,

But not completely because I'm not free.

 

I was totally confused and messed up,

Got so tired cause I've had enough.

You gave me the life I never needed,

Full of hardships and couldn't beat it.

 

I felt stupid during times of falls,

Blaming you when about to crawl.

I feared you way of life,

Acting cruel like you're holding a knife.

 

It was difficult for me to say a word,

Cause you would always jump out to disturb.

I couldn't speak and stand up for myself,

Coming out of a box would be a 100 bounds.

 

Silence and Patience became my lifestyles,

A source of armor to fight the trial.

Anger covered the blindness from within,

But don't worry, I believe that by your way I'll win.