I don’t want to get better

I don’t want to get better

because I’ve made friends with the dark and all of the negative thoughts that come with it

I don’t want to get better

because the depression has become my comfort, my sense of safety, because i know it will never change

i don’t want to get better 

because the manipulative personality I’ve adapted has becoming a warm blanket that coats my being.

I don’t want to get better

Because I’m afraid the sense of stability in have created will simply fade away once i start to heal

im afraid i will become nothing but shell of what I used to be