FOR MY BRAVE JOJO

For my brave Jojo…

• I can see you are in trouble
• And I am scared to ask what’s wrong
• But all I want is to save you
• From what I can see is going on

• I think ‘what if I can’t help you’
• Or ‘What if I make things worse’
• But deep down it doesn’t matter
• Because all I want is for this not to get worse

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• You know I’ll want to fix this
• And You know sure as hell I would try
• You might feel like I don’t get it
• But I’m here to prove to you why

• I see you in the mornings
• afternoons
• And days gone by
• And each time I see you slipping just a little bit more to die

• No one should make You feel that
• And no one has the right
• Your hurting Bcos of another human
• And you seem to have lost your fight

• He has stripped you of your self worth
• Your courage and your strength
• Your identity of who you think you are
• And made you think to these sick extents

• Going through trauma once
• Is hard enough on its own
• But now it’s come up again
• I know this makes it worse

• Take me to your pain my girl
• Lead me the way I ask
• Let me share it with you this time
• And I’ll then be by your side

• You are tip toeing through your days now
• A careful ballet you may say
• Just to avoid the conflict
• That you no that he may play

• You don’t need to be scared now
• I will help your wings to grow
• Grow back bigger and stronger
• And only then I can let you go

• Let you go to thrive in life
• Just like you deserve
• The best and biggest person
• With out anything left in tow

• Nothing to hold you back
• From being who you are
• The person we know and love best
• The Jojo that you always are

• I ask you if you are okay
• And as always you reply…
• ‘I’m fine and I always will Be’
• But I know this is a big lie

• I’ve watched this develop over years
• Much to my own disgust
• But I’ve sat back and let you do
• What you say you must

• I have said the odd comment to you
• Over this long time
• But never really wanted
• To overstep the line

• It has really been so painful
• Watching my best truly special friend
• Be hurt by someone nasty
• And be treated to this extent

• Last time I wasn’t there
• To protect you from all this
• But two years ago when we met
• I promised you just this…

• I promised I wouldn’t let you
• Go through this alone again
• I promised I would get you help
• And make sure I could be that friend

• That friend you said you didn’t have
• Back then when this all started
• The friend you didn’t no you needed
• UnTill our special time started

• Just know I’m here for you now
• And I know that doesn’t mean much
• But you don’t have to do this alone now
• And you don’t have to shiver at just a touch

• I see you go round in cycles of love and pure hate
• I see you be pulled in backwards
• And I see you sit and wait

• Wait for it to pass
• Or wait for it to end
• Wait for an excuse to try and justify
• All of this again

• You say you love him dearly
• But sometimes love just isn’t enough
• I think deep down you know
• That actually you just loved who he First was

• who he was at the beginning
• The ‘honeymooning’ part
• The things and amazing feelings
• that you remember from the past

• But sadly my precious Jojo
• I have to tell you this
• Sadly people change
• And sometimes it’s not all bliss

• Sometimes it’s in their nature
• Their genes and their ways of life
• But sometimes it’s much deeper
• Deep deep down inside

• They pull you in very slowly
• So slow you won’t even think
• They are using and  abusing you
• And telling you how to think

• Just bcos he doesn’t hit you
• Or touch you in a a bad way
• Doesn’t mean the awful things
• He will say are ever okay

• Think back to all those times that all he utters is pure shit
• Nothing nice or encouraging
• But just a hit hit and a hit

• Again not a hit that’s physical
• But a emotional one at least
• One that scars your heart for ever
• Not just a bruise, punch or a pinch

• These actions scar for longer
• They will not fade as soon as the rest
• But baby we can get you
• To a better place to rest

• I will make it my main challenge
• My mission if you will
• To make you happy once again
• And I’ll wait and wait until

• Until you find your strength again
• Until you see your worth
• Until you no longer need me
• To hold your hand on this earth

• He doesn’t have the right to control you
• To curse at you or to be
• Anything but positive to my favourite
• My little sweet lady

• I can’t sit back and watch this happen now
• Now it’s out in the open again
• I can’t watch my best friend get hurt like this
• It’s something I just can’t seem to bare

• Don’t regret telling me though baby
• Be brave and strong and true
• Bcos this is the new beginning of us finding the real YOU

Stephyy

April 2022