Working 9-5

My heart was absolutely breaking

Nothing sounded worse than losing 

not just your life,

but your way of living in it

all in one fell swoop

because I never realized if I gave up my occupation,

my entire world would think I gave up on it

The anxiety was crippling

The depression was never ending

It was like continuously falling through a black hole

I always wondered how those people felt who spoke about their job

like it was their passion

I can't begin to imagine what it would be like to

love what you do

I can't remember what it feels like to be creative,

to help myself the way I helped others

It sounds insane but I swear

I am doing more for the man than I am doing for myself

I am doing more for the man than I am doing for myself

The man became before myself

The idea of giving yourself to society to breathe is insanity

And yet,

it's the foundation America prides itself on

 - working 9-5