Stop Talking... {23rd February 2022}

I'm muttering, I'm stuttering...

Somebody's got to say something surely if they care about me...?

It's becoming embarrassing keep banging my head against this wall...

No excuses that's what I said, yet here we are all up in my headache,

Because what's on my lungs is on my tongue,

Off goes my mouth on the do run, run...

Stuttering & muttering, not another word to be said...

I wish that could be true...

I swear if I say it out loud I'll put a gun to my head or maybe I should cut out my tongue instead...

Why do I keep repeating myself into cheating myself...?

I know I'm not wrong...

So why am I not strong...?

Muttering & stuttering my self respect is suffering...

I'm becoming a contradiction...

I don't like lying, yet here I am Muttering & stuttering Lying to myself...

I'm trying to set my spirit free,

but instead I'm becoming my own worst enemy with my stuttering & muttering continuously...

There's no follow through...

Empty words coming from me...

No action to be seen...

I'm making myself a mockery, a fool that talks out of school...

Anger being my tool, no wonder I've fell of my stool...

I cant rewind, I cant unsay what I've already said...

Now that's all repeating in my head...

Muttering & stuttering...

I'm gonna learn sign language most differently instead...

So I can leave my angry talk locked inside my head & act out instead...

No more stuttering & muttering out loud no more...

Yeah remember I've said all this before...

Talking shit once more...