Please remind me who I am, as you take it all away
What I thought I had within myself,
You have tried hard to blow away.
There are times that I lost it and pulled out my hair,
When I needed someone the most
I look around..
There is no one there.
Pulling myself together, picking up the pieces that lay on the floor
Still, nobody really hears me,
Alone I stand behind a closed door
Still crying out for love,
Wanting someone to truly care.
All bullshit aside,
I do not think they will ever be there.
I fool myself to believe that what they say is really true
I know I am getting lied to,
I am hurting myself.. Never you.
Everyone is watching, all eyes on me
What for? I will never know,
My guess is one of them is waiting to make me bleed.
Trying to stay to myself, wanting to mind my own
Never fails for some odd reason,
They just can not leave me alone.
Always needing my help, Always needing my love
But I am the first they turn their back on,
The first to shove in the mud.
The ones I share my heart with, the ones that hold my life
Disappointed me in the past,
And they still hold a dull knife.
Crying myself to sleep, always feeling alone
I hope there is a heaven,
Maybe there...
I can find my true home.
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Author:
Tammy Smith Sarazin (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: A poem about feelings and trying to find where you belong, to find your home.
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Comments3
It's hard to read you express these feelings.
It's a reminder of how shit life can be at times. Don't e wait for heaven. I hope you can find contentment here on earth soon.
Thank you, i guess I have been through a lot of hurt and crap so that's what comes out. LOL
I just read my comment. Full of errors. Sorry.
In my defence it was late at night and I had no glasses on.
My daughter died aged 23 in 2008 and I really didn\'t want to exist for quite some time.
Then I realised that one day that will happen to m
e, and I\'ll never exist again.
So my message to you is.
Enjoy it while it lasts.
I am so sorry you had to lose her, but yes I totally understand. I was just telling tallisman that I write a lot from the past and what I have experienced. I am trying hard to enjoy, I just went through a mess the past year so my mind runs CRAZY sometimes. LOL
Hi Raven, you have always got friends here! A strong expressive write, I hope you find what your heart seeks, stay strong and stay well!
Thanks tallisman,. I write a lot also from the past. What I have experienced etc...
Well, if you didn't know who you were then, you certainly do Now !
LOL, yeah am pretty sure I have a idea.
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