CAN I FIND MY TRUE HOME

Please remind me who I am, as you take it all away

What I thought I had within myself,

You have tried hard to blow away.

There are times that I lost it and pulled out my hair,

When I needed someone the most

I look around..

There is no one there.

Pulling myself together, picking up the pieces that lay on the floor

Still, nobody really hears me,

Alone I stand behind a closed door

Still crying out for love,

Wanting someone to truly care.

All bullshit aside,

I do not think they will ever be there.

I fool myself to believe that what they say is really true

I know I am getting lied to,

I am hurting myself.. Never you.

Everyone is watching, all eyes on me

What for? I will never know,

My guess is one of them is waiting to make me bleed.

Trying to stay to myself, wanting to mind my own

Never fails for some odd reason,

They just can not leave me alone.

Always needing my help, Always needing my love

But I am the first they turn their back on,

The first to shove in the mud.

The ones I share my heart with, the ones that hold my life

Disappointed me in the past,

And they still hold a dull knife.

Crying myself to sleep, always feeling alone

I hope there is a heaven,

Maybe there...

I can find my true home.