Being Myself - 25.01.19

I've always followed the rules, be the good girl

Get good grades and try to elevate myself 

But it doesn't seem to matter.

Feeling torn and alone has pushed me to the breaking point

I'm just tired of not being who I want to be.

Wear a dress, wear makeup, wear heels

How will anyone want you if you don't dress a certain way?

What about what I want? It doesn't matter.

 

I'm not happy

and that's on me for looking for approval in everyone but myself

Experiences have changed me

I'm no longer that gullible teenage girl

Every angle I turn there is a different fight that I can't win.

I'm tired of isolating myself from the world and who I want to be.

Circumstances have made me not trust people

So I avoid connecting or opening up to anyone.

 

I WANT TO BE ME

The people who should accept me want me to be someone else

And I can't do it anymore

I'm done!

 

I'm just sad and I can't say that enough

Just let me be me!

I can't be anyone else.