Blue

When I think of you

i think blue

you are blue

blue is love

blue is peace

blue is truth

blue is a fitting color for you

when I see blue

i am calm

i see…

you

when anything happens, I run to you

you are my blue

my go to

my heaven

my “one that got away”

how could I tell you to go?

i should have asked you to stay

i regret not saying that everyday 

just for you to hold me one more time

brush my hair out of my face

just one more “I love you”

i don’t hate you 

and I think

thats why I’m angry

most days, there’s nothing I can do

but sit and think 

about what life would have been like if I never met you

I would like to think 

life would have been like a song in the summertime 

happy

energetic

free

the truth is

i don’t think I would have made it this far without you, my blue

even after everything you’ve done

i know 

in the deepest parts of my soul

i was meant to love you, my blue

i don’t know if I was meant to love you so 

You could break me and teach me a lesson

or

for you to break me only for me to realize

how much I love you, my blue

how much I cherish you 

I’m still trying to figure it out 

I know everyone says I should give up on you, my blue

but, it feels impossible 

However, that’s how I know you’re my blue

i chose to live instead of die for you