I'll never say sorry 😐

Spent most of my life living with a bully 

And no matter what I do I can't get out 

My mom says we're still sisters 

But the truth is hate, it gets the best of me 

 

Mom has done her things to make me feel inadequate 

But my sister is on a whole nother level 

Making my life harder without moving a finger 

Is it me? 

Should it be me who is sorry? 

For all of the stress my own anxiety  

Should it be her that is sorry? 

For everything she's ever done 

 

Is it her that's won? 

 

Because I know I'll never say sorry 

For being myself to anyone 

I could never say sorry 

For feeling, sad, angry, or happy 

I would never say sorry for  

All the pain and the worry 

 

It's not her fault that I am who I am 

Someone I love, who doesn't hold back 

But I hate her so much that my bubble  

Was perfectly designed just to keep her out 

I hate her so much my mind has concocted a plan 

To avoid confrontation and regrets about violence  

And thoughts I cant silence 

 

Cause I know I'll never be sorry 

For not being angry that I'll never lie  

And I 

Don’t wish you were sorry 

Because it still wouldn’t change how I feel 

Cause I'll always feel how i feel