my best friend is withering away

let me tell you a little story about my bestfriend, mariah

5’6, blonde hair, but she’s a little tired

a little tired of her build

tired of the body she's in

she was ten years old duck taping her stomach in

body dysmorphia is serious it’s a real disease

it’s not something she can stop, its truly what she sees

she was walking around high school damn near starving herself

she hid it so good no one knew she needed help

it all stemmed from sister

not that it was her fault

mariah wanted her body, she wanted what she saw

softballs the only reason that she even ate at all..

she knew exactly what she needed, to not pass out, to keep her little secret

starting the morning off with some oat meal and coffee

coffee takes away the hunger so that she can keep starving

getting the body she wants down to skin and bones

feeling perfect in her skin when she doesn't eat anymore 

some peanut butter and a banana is really all she needs, to be awake when we go to practice at 3

it’s not really fair that she has to live this way

eating only a few bites of her scarce dinner that day

then moving in to college with it still in her thoughts

she told her boyfriend about it and he was pretty shocked

he didn’t tell anybody about it, didn't help her with it

just told it would pass like the coward he is

if I would have known about it, i would have helped anyway i could 

not use it against her like her boyfriend would

meanwhile starving herself would soon come to an end

it started out at party on some random weekend

she got pretty drunk and her boyfriend did too

they said they were pretty fucked up, isn't that what college kids do?

mariahs stomach was hurting

i didn’t know at the time

she had a lot more hurting

going on inside her mind

that of a matter of time

i’m damn near holding the knife

i made the mistake that would haunt me the rest my life

"stick your fingers down throat you'll throw up and you’ll be alright"

"get the alcohol out" i thought i was right...

but little did i know i really started a fight

she would binge all her food

shed eat like normal all day

we saw her eating something so we thought it was ok

but we really didn't know the food wouldn’t stay for long

its about to come up, go to the bathroom, 1st stall

she stuck her fingers down her throat, now it’s resolved

all the food she ate meant nothing at all

once it came up she continued to dissolve