The Last Time

Loving a man who will never love you 

It’s a karmic cycle, consistent push and pull 

When it’s good, it’s good, when it’s bad it’s bad 

But all you can think about is the good you had

So you sit there and let the maybe I should of-consume you 

To love you, keep you safe, cherish-to have and to hold  he never intended to 

Because when it’s bad that’s when the truth comes out 

You’re a shitty mother-no one can ever love you, you are a bitter woman. You. F*cking. Suck. 

Yeah..now you’re stuck 

With no where to go, burnt every bridge to cover up the lost hope 

Praying to god, begging for help 

Because this is the last time 

God,

This is the last time, yeah I know I said that the last time 

Sold me a dream, so I can sit alone and fantasize 

Took me years to walk away, another couple to stay away 

Found peace within me, my happy place 

Then you come and promise you’d alleviate the pain 

When it was you, who had blood on their hands 

From stabbing me in my back and tearing out my heart 

I make requests, cause you act like you don’t know me 

But it was to manipulate my mind, cause you really knew me 

Knew what to say, how to act, how to smile

Build a wall up, for you to break it down by force 

Express my needs, misogyny, so I really don’t have a voice