Finding Peace

Its like i am living in a loop

Cause everyday feels the same

There are some laughs

But most time what I see, best ideas in drain

Its like my mind is divided in half

One for the studies and one is to stop from falling apart

Its like i am living inside a game

Some time i am controlling myself

But sometimes my feelings turns into auto play

Nowadays it all feels the same

Some are genuine but most are fake laughs

Its like there is a war going on inside my head

One side supporting darkness and other trying to protect what i once cared too much about

One supporting the lonely peace and other trying to find the peace in the crowd

And in the end just like a real war 

No matter who wins, the change just gonna destroy me from inside and outside, equal size

Peace in being lonely, cause there is no one to disturb you

Or the peace in the crowd, where you won't get left for even a minute and full of cheerful sounds

Peace in talking with yourself

Or the peace where you wont have to talk to a shelf

It's upto the time, thats where the answer lies

But one thing is for sure

Whoever wins, you gonna loose something from deep inside

It might be something you once thought as a unique part of you

Or something that people thought and liked you for

But just know that, it's changing for the good 

You dont have to fear, cause it will change you into your true self instead of lump of wood