Nights

This episode of insomniac nights starts again . 
Everyone around me is  asleep and me 
What am I doing here again? 
Playing the song, another love on repeat and regrets everything I did today , yesterday, the day before yesterday , actually everyday . 
I don't know if I need to cry or something else , 
But the flashbacks of it are not letting me sleep and once again I'm thinking it's my fault , 
Everything happened because of me, 
Again I'm hiding myself, 
Covering my body with a blanket and still not feeling safe I don't know what should I do next , 
Before I slip in the panic state of mine. 
My inner child is still there? 
It is blaming me i don't know why? 
I wasn't at the fault at that tym! 
Is it blaming me that I suppressed it but what could I have done other than it ?

There was no choice.