How?

when i am asked,

how i have been, 

if i'm alright,

or if i'm okay, 

my brain freezes, 

its not that the question

is hard to answer 

yet my answer is so complicated 

i can't find the words to explain it,

its like living with a bunch of people, 

but in my head, 

who are always debating and being really loud,

yet silent at the same time 

i'm so done living like this.

yet i'm not done 

i have barely even started 

and i already want out.