Life After Death/Love from above

Laughing and crying,

 

It feels as if everyone was lying,

 

Lashing and tearing,

 

Death is something we shouldn’t be fearing,

 

If I close my eyes,

And wait for my demise,

Will it be less painful,

 

And not as shameful

 

Yet nobody chooses to listen

 

Is it true I am not worth missing?

 

Bleed in emotions and commotions,

Is death something I must inquire,

 

Emotions burning in a blazing fire,

 

Wings trying to fly me higher,

 

Either god or satan will be my admirer,

 

Is this where my spirit is shattered?

 

Broken down, beaten and tattered,

 

Afraid and alone,

 

Tired and weak to the bone,

 

Would I have even be known,

 

            Now I’m here, all on my own,

 

A glimmer of heaven I see,

  Yet it's always been only me, 

 

Sunset and evening stars,

 

Leaving me with these memorable scars,

 

It’s my demise,

 

But still I rise,

 

Yet here. knowing I am dying,

 

Here I am death, ready and complying,

 

Take your sickle and strike it through me,

 

We both know me and life were never meant to be,

 

The pain I have endeared 

 

But I can not be so sure

 

Whether the gods will decide if I fly high or sink low

 

My body’s so cold, like the glistening white snow,

 

The beautiful snow, painted in red,

 

It won’t be much longer till I’ll be dead,

Before I go I have one last request,

 

Surely you could answer me this,

 

Was I a good person?

 

Quickly now, before my condition is worsen,

 

Was I filled with love or filled with hate,

 

This question has given my soul an unbearable weight, 

 

In the end this is goodbye 

 

So this is where I lie,

 

In my bed with satin sheets,

 

Hopefully I can find some peace, 

 

In the end it was always just me

 

Now it is time for me to fly and be free

 

Although I don’t really want to leave

 

it is not an option,

 

I drank down the decoction

 

To be rid the pain, 

People have always called me insane,

 

In reality 

 

I don’t have mortality

 

The angels are waiting for me at the gate

 

I must face my fate,

 

Through love and hate

 

I feel awfully sorrow

 

I know there will not be a tomorrow

 

My body has been a cage for so long

 

My mind filled with fog

 

It’s time for me to go

I know we have grown apart

 

Now it is time for to depart

 

Love, you are not alone,

 

For it has been shown,

 

You say your scared,

 

That it is hard to bear,

 

Saying goodbye is not easy,

 

The idea of you leaving makes me queasy,

 

Knowing it is life, 

 

Your eyes,

 

They glistened when you saw the stars,

 

You always said you weren't going to go far,

 

Now I know why,

I don't want to say goodbye,

 

Death is a gift from heaven above,

 

Maybe soon I can be carried as a dove

 

Such a beautiful sight 

 

The stars and sun alight

 

Still I ascend higher and higher

 

This sudden euphoria,

 

Bringing me dysphoria

 

Love so strong and desireful

 

Yet so far away

 

Suddenly all I see is grey

 

My eyes feel heavy 

 

Now that I lay here, taking my last breath,

 

I now guess this is a matter of life after death.