How We Loved and Lost Each Other

The heaven we made disintegrated in my fingers                                                                              

Like sea salt, like the moon's goodbye, and I swore it was a dream                              

The jade of the morning and the flesh between my teeth                                            

How you took my breath, how we loved and lost each other                                              

I watered you as though you were a plant                                                                    

And I cared for you like you were a candle, the white fog                                                                    

Seeping into my blue sky                                                                                                  

But you sucked on my bones and left me deranged                                                    

Like a pillow bursting at the seams                                                                                      

I stitch myself back together just to fall apart again                                                        

And paint over the walls when the memory of you lingers                                            

Like the fantasy of being raped.