Suicide

I don't want to live forever

I tried to hang myself

But the ceiling came crumbling down

Then I tried to jump off a building

But I got a fear of heights 

And I tried to swallow all the drugs like a squirrel

But what if I actually live with a damaged liver

So I took a step out into the heavy traffic

And realised I could hurt the others

Oh boy I would never stuff my head into the oven or burn 

But I am sure I would burn in hell regardless

It is hard to kill myself

When I am a coward

Because I am not brave enough 

To face the music if I accidentally live 

And imagine being charged with murder of oneself

A criminal even when I am dead

Thanks so much, law.

At least my parents have my sister 

They wouldn't need me

Can someone please show me some more love

Even though I struggle to love myself