take me
please
use me
i'm a hollow shell of who i was
but now i'm beautiful.
the purple i dyed my hair
has been ripped out with
the nails that i stopped biting
the blood of my scalp mixed with
that of my wrists.
you didn't like my skirt
too colourful
i'll use myself to dye it red
please
love me
i didn't know i was losing myself
but now i don't care
i'm the me you wanted
the me you can touch
and kiss
and fuck
please
use me
take me
want me
if you don't, who will?
i became this for you
i'm no longer me
the sharpie lines of my drawings
have worn off my skin
i replaced them with something permanent.
you never liked the books on my shelf
or the poems on my sleeve
or the stories i told
i stopped telling them
please
i'll say whatever you want
just don't leave me
there isn't a me left to exist
without you i don't know who i am
i'll stop writing poems
i'll wear pink sundresses
i'll bleach my hair blonde
i'll be quiet
i'll stop singing on walks
i'll be whoever you want
but please
please
please
you're the only one i have left
i became this for you
i'm desperate
please
have i become good enough?
will you leave too?
please
- Author: Kinsey Peterson ( Offline)
- Published: November 28th, 2022 10:34
- Comment from author about the poem: If the only person I have left no longer wants me, and I became someone they love rather than myself, what do I have left?
- Category: Sad
- Views: 28
- Users favorite of this poem: domilla
Comments3
this is heart wrenchingly brilliant .. and a stern reminder of why I first fell in love with poetry .. My only hope is that the content, rather than being autobiographical, is more a reflection of your creative & poetic imagination ... All Good Things to you Joan .. Neville 🙂
I only wish I was creative enough to express those emotions without prior experience. Thank you for the well wishing.
I second Neville's comment completely
I laud your raw and unflinching bravery
but hope even if these words, ink
your past experience
they in-turn, help you overcome
those trappings
that take you to these unhealthy mindsets...
my rule:
'is to externalise my blame
and internalise my empathy'
as an initial response to all my traumatic experiences
whether small or debilitating.
(see, because we're present
every time hurt is inflicted upon us
we wrongly assume, that we
are the common denominator
in all those painful experiences
but that's just us, at our weakened state
trying to rationalise, that callous injustice
of fate..
and it's just not true, let kindness begin with yourself
before you extend it to anyone else
like those aeroplane emergency procedures
first secure your own airbags)
thanks for sharing and stay strong, dear Poet
I have been trying to express the same emotion. Still wondering why people just leave
i like to pretend they leave because they know they are not worth my time
That’s a better way to cope
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