My problem is me

I was desperate.

Hungry.

I wanted you to know how I thirst.

I thought I can be a beast.

But I was devoured.

I was lost.

And I was losing, digging through an unfathomable deep.

I felt helpless!

My needs. My wants.

They escaped!

They ran, ran at their top speed.

For I was STUPID.

I was DUMB.

I was INCOMPETENT.

Time is my enemy.

But I am my formidable foe.

I desire to beat me!

I'm dying to kill me!

I wanted to be held VICTORIOUS.

Yet I was unbeatable.

I was surrendering to me.

How naive?

A weakling indeed!

One.

Two.

Three.

The days will pass by.

They won't wait for me!

And so I was scared.

Scared with all my flesh and bones.

Can I? Will I?

Shall I be able to do it?